Have you ever had a dream to do something AMAZING and then realized that the time wasn't quite right? It's not that you don't have the passion for it or the plan to make it happen. There is often extenuating circumstances that just prevent you from being able to pursue that dream. Maybe you are in a job and you want to stick it out for a while to honor your commitment; or the resources just aren't in place to get you to your goal. Perhaps, you are like me (Mary) and have young children that require ALL of your attention and energy (as I'm writing this, there is a toddler on my lap and a 10-year-old poking and playing with her...ahhh...)
What I've realized is that just because the timing is off, the dream and the desire to see that dream fulfilled, do not go away. What comes next is the waiting game! ugh... Seriously, it has been one of the longest, and most difficult seasons of my life. I've felt that I was waiting for the time when I would be able to pursue the dreams deep inside my heart.
January of this year was really my tipping point. I began to have this deep "longing" for something new in my life. At that point, I didn't even know what it was. I just knew that I was no longer content with the ordinary I was living. I had this hunger and desire for something more. Anything more. That was nearly 8 months ago!
So, what do you do when your feelings and desires don't line up with your current life? Well, I'll tell you what I did: I prayed and I cried, usually at the same time. I recall being alone in the car (must have been a lucky day for this mama!) and sitting at the stop sign just 1 block from our house. I began to talk to God about how I just wasn't content anymore, and then I began to sob. I just sat there and cried like a little child.
That was one of the most therapeutic car-crying sessions I have ever had. God just held my spirit and let me be sad. And, then He came through for me. Did He immediately change my circumstances and make me "happy"? Nope. He reassured my soul. He showed me that today is vitally important. He showed me that He will put me right where I NEED to be. He showed me that there are people right in front of me (at the grocery store, the Dollar Tree, or right in my own home) that need to know how much God loves them.
His plans surpass any temporary living arrangements. His plans are always BETTER than anything we could think of or imagine. He will always work with us to show people how much He loves them.
So, as you are waiting for the next adventure to unfold in your life, don't forget about today. See the person right in front of you and bring JOY and HOPE and LOVE to them. There is nothing more fulfilling than sharing Love with the people God intentionally puts in your everyday, ordinary life.
And, remember: as you wait, there is ALWAYS time to pray and to cry.
We're a family of six living full-time in a skoolie (aka a school bus converted into an RV). We are inviting you to join us as we live life to its fullest and empower others to do the same. Welcome to the family!