So many tears shed. So many questions unanswered. So much heartache and pain.
What do we say about our perfect God when some prayers seem to get answered, while others are left seemingly unheard until the other side of eternity?
Honestly, I don’t know.
I don’t have answers for the deepest cries and heartaches of the soul. My words fall so far short from offering any hope or peace. Life’s most painful situations are more than my feeble knowledge can comprehend.
That is exactly why we need to look for Truth outside of ourselves. That is why I go running and crying to the Word of God, The Bible, Jesus.
I surround myself on every side with a stronghold of protection. I hide within high walls of defense to protect my soul from all assaults that threaten to destroy me. My shelter is simply holding onto the Truth; these truths are a powerful shield that I actively engage:
Jesus says that He is the Gateway to eternal life and that everyone who enters through Him will experience LIFE, FREEDOM, and SATISFACTION. God also says that He is the light and in Him there is NO darkness. So, where does death and disease and heartache and loss fit into this perfect God who is only light and love?
All darkness is from the enemy.
The enemy. He is the thief of joy; the thief of health; the thief of life. Jesus says that the thief has only one thing in mind: to steal, slaughter and destroy our souls.
Cancer. Death. Loss. Fear. Anxiety. Depression. Self-hatred. Pride. Shame. These are all tactics of the enemy to steal your soul.
I am a child of God. You are a child of God. We are children of Light. There is no darkness in us. What appears as darkness to our mind’s eye is merely a shadow meant to cover up the light. Death is only a shadow. But, because of Jesus, we are now light and in us there is no darkness.
Then, why cancer? Why death? I don’t know. I only hold onto what I know to be true... and, then I tell myself the truth over and over and over again. Until all doubt flees. Until all fear runs back to hell. Until my mind remembers who God is, who the enemy is, and who I am.
We must always hold onto Truth...mostly because it is so easy to get swallowed up by despair. We must speak the words of truth out loud because the power of life and death are in the spoken word. We must declare over our minds and our circumstances that our God has given us LIFE; our God has given us FREEDOM. Freedom from loss and freedom from fear and freedom from the enemy.
Therefore, I will keep fighting to see the fulfillment of all the promises God has spoken in His word. I will continue to cry out for healing when people’s body’s are ransacked with disease. I will declare life and freedom over the sick and those covered by the shadow of darkness.
I will continue to tell myself the Truth when my mind slips back into doubt. I will cling tightly to Jesus when the storms of life whip me around from all sides.
I will abide in Jesus and He will abide in me.
References: John 10:10, Proverbs 18:21, 1 Thes 5:5, Rom 8:11, Rom 8:17...basically all of Romans
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